An Update

Last night I requested back the rights to my five books from Riptide Publishing. I didn’t do this with a light heart, or without carefully thinking through all of my options. I also didn’t do it out of a sense of ill-will. I learned a lot about being an author from Riptide, and my experiences with them have, I hope, taught me the right (and wrong) way to handle my own books going forward.

So what does ‘going forward’ entail? Self-publishing all five books. They will be unavailable for a short time, but then I hope to make the Seasons of Love series and Heels Over Head available on all platforms shortly after.

And because I promised transparency, I’ll explain why I chose to go this route, instead of leaving my books with Riptide or attempting to publish them elsewhere:

The Seasons of Love series is a mixed pairing/orientation series. Two of the books are M/M (one with two gay characters, the other with two bisexual men) while the other two are F/F (one with an asexual/bi relationship, and the other with two bisexual women). Riptide put an effort into selling this series as both individual books and as a whole series, but I also often felt like they were a little lost about how to reach a wider audience. Thaw was marketed on M/M-only sites and erotica-focused blogs, while Heat Wave was advertised as a lesbian romance– which it is not. I’m so thankful for the tireless work of the Riptide marketing department, but I also feel like I can give Thaw and Heat Wave the individual focus they deserve and work to ensure that they get to the hands of readers who crave this kind of rep.

As for Heels Over Head, I mentioned in my last post that there will be a sequel, and it was already planned for self-pub. In fact, there will be two of them: In the Deep End will be a transition book between Jeremy and Brandon, and Val and her love interest. The book will focus mainly on Jer and Bran as they begin to build a relationship with no secrets… or with maybe a few more secrets. (You’ll also finally learn the answer to that burning question from the end of HOH, I promise!) I wanted to write more of Jer and Bran’s story, but I also want to use ItDE as a chance to introduce the readers more fully to Val, and to introduce her future love interest. Val is demisexual, and I wanted to show the progression of friendship to romance in an organic way; after all, if you remember Val, you know she (and Jer) are both Not So Great at making friends! So I want to make sure this relationship has the full time to develop in a way that will do justice to the demi community. The third book will be F/F and tell just Val’s story (with background Jer/Brandon, of course), and still doesn’t have a title because titles are Literally The Worst.

Finally, future projects: are put on hold a bit while I get this book stuff sorted. Hopefully I’ll have some fun announcements in a few months. Hopefully it’ll be worth the wait.

And that’s where I’m at right now. I’ll be pulling links down and getting things organized over the next week or so, and then hope to get things turned around and back up soon. I’ll keep y’all posted!


My Statement as a Riptide Publishing Author:

This has been a week of revelations for many. It has been a shock, a horrible surprise, a source for outrage and hurt and anger. What was done by people in positions of trust and power has caused irreparable harm— but for those who knew about it and could not speak up for fear of repercussion, it’s also a time of relief. What was a poorly-kept-secret is now in the open.

As a Riptide author, I have a lot to think about. I have a lot to process. I’ve spent the last few days examining my own interactions with Sarah and other Riptide staff… and also my contribution to further harm by not speaking up when faced with signs of phobic, abusive, and inappropriate behavior. Some was shock, some was a desperate need for approval from people who held power of my writing career. But I need to apologize for not speaking up and calling out problematic behavior, like when I was told that “it would probably be best for these stories to be as close to, uh, “mainstream” queer as possible.” I am sorry for my silence, and by extension my complicity in any harm caused.

Right now I am faced with the same difficult choices as many of my fellow Riptide authors. My immediate desire is to pull my books from this publisher; however, hasty decisions have gotten me in trouble in the past, and I’m determined to fully understand all options before me before taking any steps. The cost of self-publication must be examined, as too should the options of re-publishing with another company. There is potential for my books to be out of print for months, and the lost royalties associated with that are potentially damaging.

I say all of this to be as transparent as possible, and to ask your understanding and patience as I work to select the best path for my books, my readers, and myself.

But whatever may come next, I want to make something clear: Xen’s courageous choice to speak up has my full and unwavering support, as does any author or reader who does the same. Thank you Xen— for speaking up, and for listening when I needed someone to talk to.

What’s next for me beyond this? I have a novel in the works that was already intended to be my first self-pub project. It’s about friendship, dreams, and a maybe-otherworldly neighbor. I already have a cover for it, and I can’t wait to share it with you all! I’m also working on a sequel to Heels Over Head, which was also planned for self-publishing as Riptide declined to contract it.

I hope to be back soon with more information on all of my books. Thank you so much.

“Heels Over Head” Interlude: Brandon and Jeremy at the World Aquatics Championships

Yesterday was the Men’s 10m Platform Synchronized Diving event at the 2017 FINA World Championships in Budapest. Which, if you’ve read Heels Over Head, you’ll know is a Pretty Big Deal. I was streaming the finals at my desk, and even though neither the Americans or the Brits got a medal, it will still a great competition! (And of course there’s still the 10m Individual!)

So I wanted to share a short and sweet interlude, imagining if Brandon and Jeremy were at Worlds this week. This is unedited, cavity-inducing, and contains bonus Tom Daley! (If you don’t know who Tom is, google him. You’re welcome.)

NOTE: this short contains spoilers for Heels Over Head, so you definitely shouldn’t read it unless you’ve read the book. (Also, no, it doesn’t answer that Lingering Question at the end of HOH… that’s another story which will be coming later this year.)

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I’m in Playboy! (Also, I wrote some books…)

In what may be the strangest announcement of my life, I’m thrilled to announce that I’m now on! I wrote an article about what it’s like to be asexual (from my perspective), and the experience of never being sexually attracted to another person in a culture that is saturated with sex.

Imagine Never Being Sexually Attracted to Another Human Being. That’s How I’ve Felt My Whole Life.

Society is fixated on sex. We’re told that anyone who doesn’t want sex is unnatural. Society is wrong.

I also had a book come out a few days ago!

Heels Over Head is my (first) sports romance, and follows two college platform divers as they begin to prepare for the Olympic games. It’s enemies to lovers, and is about finding family and team, and learning to love yourself just the way you are. It’s a book that I’m incredibly proud of, and I really hope you’ll check it out!

You can find purchase links and all that jazz here.


Jeremy Reeve is one of the best divers in the world, and he’s worked hard to get where he is. He intends to keep pushing himself with one very clear goal in mind: winning gold at the summer Olympics in two years. That medal might be the only way to earn his father’s respect as an athlete.

Brandon Evans is everything Jeremy isn’t: carefree, outgoing, and openly gay. With his bright-blue eyes and dramatic tattoos, he’s a temptation that Jeremy refuses to acknowledge. But Jeremy can’t ignore how talented Brandon is–or that Brandon has no interest in using his diving skills to compete.

They’re opposites who are forced to work together as teammates, but Jeremy’s fear of his own sexuality and Brandon’s disinterest in anything “not fun” may end their partnership before it begins. Until a single moment changes everything, and they help each other discover that “team” can also mean family and love.

So I now have three of my five 2017 releases out.


Coming up are my summer-themed romance, Heat Wave, which is a bisexual F/F with a summer fling that’s all heat and sex… until it becomes something more. And this fall will bring Changing Colors, an M/M romance about a man learning to stand up for what he believes in, and his gender non-conforming boyfriend who’s there to help him.


(And as always, huge amounts of love and awe to Natasha Snow for creating all five of these stunning covers!)

Guest Post at Open Ink Perspectives!

I wrote a post over at Open Ink’s Perspectives blog about the things I wish I’d been told when I first got offered a publishing contract:

If I could go back in time, I’d tell myself three simple things:

1. Stop procrastinating. No, seriously. Deadlines come faster than you’d think.
2. You will feel like a fraud at least three times a day. You’re not.
3. It’s okay to say ‘no’.

The post is titled Learning to Say NoGo check it out!